Why

Gigabytes worth of digital memories
I can't click delete
Why
Why do I keep what eats my face when I see it
Why keep what turns my stomach when I remember
That your birthday is September first
And hers is July third
Why did I spend days hearing the words
I love you, stay
Instead of focusing on your hand hitting my face
Why did I let you explain
Your lies with more lies
Why did I watch your eyes
fuck each other
Why did I capitulate under pressure and say
What you wanted me to say
For the sake of your name?