As if

I exercise
Push and pull
Push and pull
Keep it at bay
If I sit still with my feelings I will go insane
Go insane... That's funny
I mean to say I'll stay instead of visit
My demons have set a place
And it's alluring
But illusion
Push and pull
Push and pull
And pray the fog will lift
I don't even pray
I don't believe
Act as if...
One foot in front of the other
I think I can do this
I think I can live